Exist

Another starry night
to drill holes in the paper
to succumb, to wallow
to just exist, to stare at sleep
to tell need is not the crux.

Dreaming riddles through
seven pounds of me
to fill voids
to draw curtains
to let it all go
thread of mornings
tied together
weak glue, strong blue.

A pattern in ring of smoke?
or is it another puzzle
to get involved in
to drain, to win and lose
So I stay awake
Clouds are ashamed
I stare too hard
they don't need admiration
they feel unworthy
they don't need my words
I tell them they deserve it
I try though, it's how I am
Somebody does it
to exist, to survive
to live freely and fully.

Design

I talk to you in my dreams
collect all those conversations
extract their essence in the mini capsules
I wash them down with steel cans
whenever I'm turning bad
forgetting how to walk.

This shivering inside the blanket
it's the impatience inviting the cold 
Glances through the screen so old
peeling off the ember, all wrong places
Have I told you about the mocking walls

careworn but judgmental bricks.

Can I listen to all your misery

I don't care about the phases

This could be forever

it doesn't matter, it augments affinity

Poisoned lungs and charred tissue

share them in this pristine time.

Each passing sunlight bottled

we forget what got us here

Forgetting how to fly

through our promises

Love is a mere liability

imbalance sprinting through

soluble in the arteries

This was my design.