Fade in. Fade out.

The shadow of the clock has changed much
And so has the mood of music the crutch
The boy though remains the fragile shell
Walking a road paved with thorns to sell
Walk ahead is destined to be a lonely one
Just watching from far and revel in her sun

A bondage of different kind to wallow in
The words all to swallow and heart so thin
Answers are all floating but not within reach
Dancing the mock emotions for mind siege
Free will and heart never do combine well
I wish I could sing a feeling of being swell

And now he tries practiced apathy on skin
Smile to the mirror till its etched dried line
No he cannot swim in the fake river of hope
His heart feels too much to let go of the rope
A day will dawn when crystal ship arrives
Till that time the sands rue her and cries

Growing up this tree never knew about roots
Just jumped the milsestones to reach moon
Journey he never saw just the breaking point
Stuck now between the veil of love and hate
Now the height attained his biggest enemy
Wonders why the bad and good all to me

The voice continually breaks on the phone
Water was shed from both ends so alone
Days passed and only one side of it remain
Never could he get past the hangover so insane
A deep tunnel dug inside his mind vessel
Piano fades out and only its remnants sail

The Spent Man

No one asked for eternity like immortals
Just a lifetime of ups and downs like stairs
As the love grows dead inside the flower
Forever the regret stays and leaves cower
Wonder the limbs where did control go
Life stuck in a race of boats with no row
Imagining a bridge built with no stones
Only dead feelings and pain are its pillars

A good man he remained till coffin closed
Never did he pray even when way was lost
Belief on his shoulders got heavy to carry
Cruel world just couldn't accept his story
His dark days did not allow him a shadow
Desperate for affection the thirst maddened
Hanging by the brittle shoulders saddened
The search for happiness a one way street
If not found inside then you are devil's feast

Night's silence maligned by the haunting melody
The restless instruments make ride bumpy
The operatic howls of the mind from far
No god or angel could hear from the star
Behind the door lay the route to salvation
Too late for him to find god's lonely station
Skin crawling with a fear so great it folds
None are allowed and can't leave the mould
Peace was shunned long ago from body
To be broken into parts it cries like a baby

Begining like a mellow white flag drama
You do not deserve anything said karma
The man fought gallantly with all his might
Profusely bleeding he promised to be right
He will fly as high as those lightnings dance
The clouds laughed on his one final chance
He called on all of his brothers to unite
They frowned and he waited all the night
Arrows flew and the nails on coffin stuck
Even his own had no part to play in his luck

Cold & Broken Hallelujah

And he woke up suddenly from the vivid dream
Diary he slept on dripping with whiskey creme
Night dawned on him with a mellow pace
Clocks all strapped,hands do not compete in race
In dreamscape the gentle wind comforted him
Out here no lights to guide him towards home

Fragile is the bond between human hearts
Sailor's knot in the rope not worthy of trust
Spiraling down into reality from gaga-land
He realized nothing is true,fantasy shunned
A hand he could hold is no longer there
A man he always tried to be, now doesn't care

Complex her soul a simple face masked
In the dream, like a princess she smiled
He stood far away watching her like a star
Afraid he might wake up so kept losing the war
Like the dark side of the moon never visible
He can't ever have her, his hands tremble

Words now fade away from the pages soaked wet
Oceans from the eye or is it the whiskey crest
Restless eyes cannot sleep now, they need no rest
Desperate the heart to go back in dream so fresh
It has been raining since that sunset ages ago
Cold frost on the feet reminds him of the fatal blow

Nothing felt anymore which could raise the hair
This great grey cloud which sheds nothing to share
He wanders lost, a nomad in the harsh reality
Falls in love with the melancholic creativity
When did he last saw the full moon, he wonders
All the courage stored in guts now spilled, he runs

Shaking inside the mind's blanket ever shrinking
He wishes sometimes to be released from everything
Sleep evades his shredded soul, a routine sin to please
Want to play the dreamcatcher, there he finds peace
Playing hide & seek with Alice in the rabbit hole
She will get out of it, He knows, his losing role

Abstract fluids

The phone keeps ringing nonchalantly
The voice flowed to his ears smoothly
Heart so weak yet a mind full of hubris
Mistakes splattered on the wall crease
Now he floats to the roof like a balloon
The plaster gives in and furnitures croon
He falls jaw flat on the floor so wet
All the treasure now flown out of the chest

Strange times are raining upon the life
Streets of the heart sliced through knife
Questions so profound worries the mind
Imaginary river reign in the eyes so kind
The new feather interests the king of flock
With her he can drink venom break rock
But the feather possesses past allegiance
All king does is lose all the trust and friends

Profanity is not the need of this dark time
Lets move with the moonlight on chime
The golden liquid so slippery it gives peace
Habit it becomes another one of soul piece
The god you believe has no set of laws
Hedonism is the way to go sing crows
The words one see and read hold nothing
Only what the mind is filled up, the thing

They sold me on the devil's credit money
Told me I make everyone's mind phony
I just laugh at them, they cannot understand
I just give the push, only thy heart command
I bend myself for her love, so not pretty
Falling in the deep dark pit was my destiny
Now he learns the lesson of life so cruel
No one belongs to you, free will so brutal

The World After

Keep your pen flowing and paper drinking
Envision a world far away from thinking
Where the ropes of morality are limitless
And all of us dance on the melting floor
Let us all swim in the pool of fantasy lore
Unknown our whereabouts to the kingdom
Where heaven and earth as one blossom

Rivers of whiskey flow and look so serene
And our temples have no god to make scene
The middle earth has no bridge paved to it
Just a river wishkah to drink up the insane
Grass when melted to black gives me peace
Limbs I cannot move, toes numb as trees
This land knows no boundations, truth free

Sniffing up the golden embers of sunlight
Along with feeling that raindrop on the mud
We stroll together into an event of lifetime
Where the souls converge into their prime
Free from all the shackles engraved on us
Now they finally meet their ownselves

The long highway here has no sharp bends
Surrounded by ethereal beauty and friends
This journey knows no end we joyously sing
Regrets all going down the drain swimming
Jumping beyond the ring of fire with a smirk
Gulping down the thread which holds brisk

No hearts can be broken in this universe
No blood could be shed without the bouts
She walks down the cloud like an angel
So pretty and trusting, white as a true pearl
Whispering gently the soft winds in my ear
You've paid for your sins, live without fear
You will finally meet her six feets below mud
Your heart will find the closure in this flood

Lift me higher, Bury deeper.

Living a life of solitude under the rainy sun
Lying on this barren land I could not shun
That face glistening with hard earned sweat
It has gotten black from the dust laden wind
Walking through the dark alley, head weary
Lit up by plethora of thoughts so fiery

Nothing in the world is of interest anymore
This gaping hole I've been carrying so long
Soul searching is the titanic withered away
Trapped in mind's island such a thorny bay
Days are the sand hourglass so tricky
A thousand moments spent feeling empty
Release me from this cruel dormant volcano
Don't really like the stale air blowing so slow

Standing in the front of this melting mirror
I only see a troubled face, imagine wrinkles
I so long for the yesterday, where I'm happy
But was that ever the case, perennial crazy
Mind overdosed with an imaginary acid
Release me from this boiling pot with no lid
Hold me now and provide me a shoulder
the one which has no other contender

The smiles reach wide only in the camera
Disease has bruised and battered the shell
Rolled in a paper it just smokes me well
Blood around fingers bursts the dam open
Boredom is all around, nothing to blend in
All I can think of is just nothing good
Mechanical life, sit all day and just brood
Standing on the lane which is moving itself
No control on thoughts or actions or belief

The night drinks up on my whiskey breath
she tenders up and provides me a sheath
She says just keep walking on this path
Wretched road towards your oblivion dance
Live on your own my favorite shaman child
Your earth will soon stop revolving so wild
Buried with your words deep inside you
Time will come when you find peace inside
Like the last time you were alone and cried

Muddled bubbles

Through the hollow sunken eyes
Deep down buried in gold debris
He could not discriminate the shade
Whole world in Grey, a true charade

Good or bad, right or wrong, white or black
Nothing really matters on the heart's track
Counting the seconds in drops he drinks
Confused he is, too frayed for a shrink

These words are all he got left in his tricks
Words which are eternal, they never sink
Too pure were his maneuvers of love
He forgot to save some for his own dove

Like a grapevine overflowing the love
Never trust the returns this world shove
This broke his soul, essence lost forever
Feel though he must, whenever wherever

Does he feel the same for everyone here
Or has the feel sunk, does he not care?
Attention from the beauty makes him weak
The next second knows not what he seeks

Climb Hills, drink rivers, fight the nightmares
This fool will stomp over all the ugly stairs
Just never ask it to love with so ferocity
A battle he lost, never to return to this city