He hates you all

People with their non stop chatter
Talking bout things which dont matter
Do they ever stop and realize the truth
That all the talks are nothing but mirage
One day it will end the same way
Beneath the dirt or atop a fiery bed

All this laughter makes me ponder again
Am I living it wrong? No smile to gain
Why do I feel like a stranger with them
When will the smile reach the eye brim
Tragic they claim is the word for me
And I say isn't the world just a sad tree
Where the fruits rot and break you inside
The spark is missing in the dark side

Faces however beautiful seem all ugly
Where is this hate coming from in me
I question and my mind laughs the sadist
But that thing it cries deep inside the chest
It reminds me the way I was at a time
When laughs flew and sweeter was chime
I will not fall into this trap again I promise
The devils on the shoulder gently kiss
This is the rabbit hole, one can't escape
I need salvation, save me in the cave.

This bottle in my hand is a true friend
She never leaves me and stays till end
Those books which entice me so much
I smell the pages which make my crutch
Oh the stories they seem so lively and real
Then a sudden jolt to jaw, back from veil
There is this monster inside me clawing
To make him happy I feed him my feeling

This unrealistic happiness is not for me
Have forgotten the times when I felt free
The secrets are out in the pandora box
No one has the key, there is no lock
Only a ray of light creeps from inside
Eyes habitual of dark cannot yet decide
Fighting with your own mind so weary
Survive says the box in chest so teary

Eyes don't shut as needles prick the mind
All this hate consuming him like a wine
Bolted are the doors leading to salvation
Train has long said goodbye to station
Situations arose behind the closed door
Even the trusted eyes could not decipher
One day it will help him disintegrate
Back to the dust he was, a drop of nothing.