Cannot Say Much

Whenever you roam around me
When I cannot say half the things
I want to silently sing
All those words hanging aimless
Can you pluck them out of me?

I wish you could just see
The way I used to be
Before we walked to talk
At your door, about to knock
Will you open or not?

Do I make you laugh
Nervous giggle, lips parted half
I talk unbounded to avoid
The eyes that make my head light
Is it apathy or sympathy, O mystique!

Feel free to let go and leave
My hope does not let me believe
I sense a blossoming hive
You pretend it's not there, I see it ripe
Don't be afraid of the sight.

No place for the weak hearted
This fire we started not easy to douse
Chemicals we breathe in this house
They make you swoon in my arms
Still not mine, wait is the call, no harm.

Clocks testing my unflinching interest
I hear the sharp melody beneath
It stays in the air and just breathes
Then our hands meet and souls part
Riding on the dreaded yet desired love cart.